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Thursday, January 8th, 2015
3:13 am - up late talking to carol
now to bed for chemo at mgh and clinic which i am so proud to be on. ill read where i left off last and give the DL

current mood: drained

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Friday, July 10th, 2009
10:32 pm

current mood: gloomy

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Sunday, July 5th, 2009
2:46 pm
life is really fucked up... thats my update of the year...

one year ago this week i was in las vegas

current mood: uncomfortable

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Saturday, November 22nd, 2008
10:45 am - theres something in the way
its okay to eat fish cause they dont have any feelings

current mood: uncomfortable

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Thursday, June 5th, 2008
1:20 pm - wayyy to trendy
i hate the global warming slogan clothing trend... for instance... this shirt...

or this bag

i care about the enviroment just as much as anyone but these clothes are getting way too trendy... i mean the fringin "go green" shirt was most likely made in a sweatshop in china by some 11 year old girl who prolly was paid 7 cents an hour to make it... and the fabric... and those factories lots of produce pollution... are you really going green or are you just dumb...?

current mood: hangin the fuck out

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Thursday, May 22nd, 2008
6:40 pm - last time i took this i got 170...
this quiz is retarded though... and im actually 143 as of a few days ago... but it goes up and down.

You Should Weigh 155

If you weigh less than this, you either have a fast metabolism or are about to gain weight.

If you weigh more than this, you may be losing a few pounds soon!

current mood: high

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Sunday, February 17th, 2008
6:09 pm - theyre to help the enviroment
Lexbrook1: ....oh....and I bought bees
YodgEnedgE: good...
YodgEnedgE: is it too cold for them yet?
YodgEnedgE: i mean can they even live outside or what
Lexbrook1: i pick them up in April
YodgEnedgE: oh yeah
YodgEnedgE: how much did you pay for them
Lexbrook1: they live in the hive in winter by keeping each other warm
Lexbrook1: $78 for 3 lbs
Lexbrook1: with a queen
YodgEnedgE: you get one queen
Lexbrook1: queens cost ~$25
YodgEnedgE: lol
Lexbrook1: workers + queen == $78
YodgEnedgE: good good
Lexbrook1: can't have 2 queens in 1 hive...causes fights
Lexbrook1: just like humans

current mood: nostalgic

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Saturday, November 17th, 2007
9:18 pm - 'dealing' with vegetains (a guide for meat eaters i guess...)
i was reading this article and its funny caus some of this shit is so true... always happens to me in situations

DOs and DON'Ts
Do ask the vegetarian what s/he can and cannot eat. Don't make assumptions based on your experience with other vegetarians.

Do know that for most vegetarians "meat" includes everything in the animal kingdom (including fish and fowl) and "animal products" include eggs, all dairy, gelatin, and honey. Don't ask "what about chicken? what about turkey? what about fish? what about shrimp? what about eggs? what about cheese? what about milk?" <<---lol

Do use vegetarian substitutes in the vegetarian/vegan dishes you prepare, like vegetable stock, olive oil, and soy milk. Don't figure it's ok for a dish to contain meat products as long as the vegetarian doesn't know about it.

Do ask vegetarians if they have any food allergies or if there are any non-animal foods that they do not eat/enjoy. Don't assume that just because someone's a vegetarian that s/he is not allergic to any vegetables or that s/he loves all vegetables. (i fucking HATE mushrooms, so stop offering me a fucking portebello burger ew)

Do, if possible, set aside a portion of your regular dishes before adding the meat.

Don't assume the vegetarian will be ok with picking meat off pizza or out of sauce. (duh)

Do make an effort to serve vegetarian dishes other than salad and bread; you can even make two versions of many foods. Don't feel you have to make dozens of vegetarian dishes or do amazing things with tofu.

Do be open-minded about trying vegetarian recipes. Don't assume that vegetarianism is boring.

Do read packages to make sure that a product contains no meat or other unwanted ingredients. Don't just look for meat, dairy, or eggs; there are a number of less obvious animal products.

Do use a separate set of cooking utensils for the vegetarian dishes. Don't stir, for example, chicken soup and minestrone soup with the same spoon. (gross)

Do know that vegetarians appreciate the extra effort you are making. Don't feel you need to make a meatless version of every single dish.

Do let your friend know which dishes are vegetarian. Don't announce that there's a vegetarian in the room. (LMAFO, like my dad always does)

Do know that that there are numerous vegetarian sources of protein and other nutrients. Don't assume that vegetarianism is inherently unhealthy.

Do accept that vegetarians have chosen vegetarianism for themselves and no one else. Don't feel threatened, or assume that s/he wants you to feel bad about your diet.

Do understand that vegetarians aren't trying to annoy you. Don't take offense if s/he refuses certain dishes.

Do understand that there are numerous reasons for vegetarianism, but in the end it usually comes down to a personal choice. Don't challenge the person about why s/he is a vegetarian, or about eggs, leather, and other "borderline" issues.

Do know that most vegetarians believe in the right of each person to choose his/her own diet. Don't let a handful of rude, in-your-face vegetarians make you think we are all like that.

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Sunday, September 9th, 2007
8:05 pm - carol told me to update
the sister left your side to help you grow... and now she watches while you shine...
the soul of an angle... touched from above... your spirit is shining... surrounded by love.... surrounded by love...

current mood: cold

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Wednesday, April 25th, 2007
9:48 pm - sigh
im sick of shoe designer companies thinking that just becasue i want a good old pair of vegetarian sneakers they assume that i also have BAD taste in shoes... just beacuse i dont like to murder cows in the process of waring a pair of sneakers doesnt mean i want to have a gay ass 'green and olive' pair of shoes... or some dumb cunky pair of dumb ass velcro frigin circas... or WIKKED stupid gay ass converse EW ... ugh... i just want a pair of nice leather free pink etnies calicuts... in a size 12 ... is that too much to ask????

current mood: tired

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Tuesday, April 17th, 2007
8:30 pm - walleye technologies
X-ray vision coming into view: Maker says cheap, small camera sees through objects
By Jay Fitzgerald
Boston Herald General Economics Reporter

Friday, April 13, 2007

A Somerville firm says it’s developed a new portable-camera technology that can see through walls - without Superman-like X-ray vision.

The one-year-old Walleye Technologies, run by local entrepreneur Chris Adams, uses radar beams to penetrate objects and then bounce back into a hand-held device that converts the beams into digital images.

Adams, who has founded a number of companies, said the black-and-white images are similar in concept to photos caught on cell-phone cameras. The images can be immediately displayed, stored, analyzed and transmitted.

Walleye, which hopes to roll out the devices next year, hopes to market the product to home contractors working on renovations, allowing them to see through walls for studs, wires and other objects.

Walleye also envisions selling the devices to airports, police departments and prisons as screeners for security purposes.

“There are big markets,” said Adams, a former MIT researcher. “We’re very optimistic.”

Other companies also make imaging devices - using infrared, X-ray or even radar technologies - to see through objects.

But those technologies can cost tens of thousands of dollars each and be bulky in size.

Adams vowed Walleye’s hand-held system will cost much less and be affordable for carpenters or homeowners to purchase at a local hardware store.

Adams refuses to say exactly how much the 6-inch-by-6-inch devices would cost.

“Ours is truly a hand-held, battery-operated” image screener, he said.

Adams refused to let photographs be taken of the device, saying it will be unveiled in due time.

He has previously founded other companies, such as Mosaic Technology and Senera Corp. Walleye has been funded with money from family members and friends, he said.

current mood: crazy

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Thursday, February 1st, 2007
9:11 pm
im having wicked bad ocd with my buddy list... sometimes i do that... i have to organize my buddies by away messages and idle times and mobile devies... but then what do i do with away idle people? do i put them next to the away people or with the idle but not away people? and what the fuck should i do with subz name and his goddam 'lock' symbol? hes the only one on my buddy list who has that... its very confusing and stressful

current mood: giddy

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Thursday, January 25th, 2007
10:17 am - i have nothing to write up here so ill write this
some songs are just plain beautiful

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Monday, January 15th, 2007
3:41 pm
x. Slept in your bed: Me
x. Saw you cry: prolly scott
x. Made you cry: prolly scott
x. Spent the night with: scott?
x. You shared a drink with: scott
x. You went to the movies with: scott
x. You went to the mall with: went by myself last time
x. Yelled at you: my mom prolly
x. Sent you an email: myself
x. You kissed: scott

x. Said "I Love You" and meant it?: yes
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: yep
X Been to New York: yah
x. Florida: yah
x. California: yah
x. Hawaii: yep
X. Mexico: yeah
x. China: someday
x. Canada: mmhmm
x. Danced naked: prolly in the shower... yah
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: no
x. Wish you were the opposite sex: when i was little
x. Had an imaginary friend: nah
x. Things you like in a girl/guy: personality
x. Do you have a crush on someone: my niga boo...
x. What book are you reading now: this half spanish half english book
x. Worst feeling in the world: an unlimited feeling of sadness... and an XTC comedown
x. What is the first thing you think when you wake up: depends on what i gota do that day
x. Future daughter's name: nonnie
x. Future son's name: telly
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: no
x. What's under your bed: nothing
x. Favorite sport to watch: none
x. Current Age: 20
x. Siblings: three brothers
location: lexington massachusetts
x. College plans: im in college
x. Piercings/tattoos: some piercings but i dont wear the rings for them

x. Do you do drugs: Yeah
x. Do you drink: sometimes
x. Who is your best friend: scotty-too-hotty, jenna, lizzy, duurk, boddy-c, kristy-lee-ina, ellen, and of course... sandy-ray

x. What are you most scared of: hmm... somebody important to me dying.... and also dying
x. What clothes do you sleep in: my spongebob boxers usually... and like a tshirt
x. Where do you want to get married: hopefully in pacific palisades
x. Who do you really hate: i dont feel like getting into it
x. Been in Love: sure
x. What type automobile do you drive: 97 nissan altima
x. Do you have a job: nope... im in school though
x. Do you like being around people: yeah... i need people... but i cant handle new faces as easily
x. Are you for world peace: well of course i am
x. Are you a health freak: no but i wish i was

x. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: naaah ... well famous people
x. Have you ever cried over something someone of the opposite sex did: yes
x. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: i would say that there is just a type of person i would NEVER go after
x. Want someone you don't have right now: no
x. Are you lonely right now: no
x. Ever afraid you'll never get married: nah
x. Do you want to get married: yeah i think so
x. Do you want kids: im not sure

x. Room in house: living room
x. Type(s) of music: electronic
x. Color: bright yellowie lime green
x. Perfume or cologne: perfume
x. Month: may... thats when you get outa school... oh AND december
x. Stone: anything shiny

x. Cried: yes
x. Bought something: yes
x. Gotten sick: no
x. Sang: yeah
x. Said i love you: nope
x. Wanted to tell someone you loved them: no
x. Met someone new: no
x. Moved on: no
x. Talked to someone: yeah
x. Missed someone: yes
x. Hugged someone: yes
x. Kissed someone: yes
x. Fought with your parents: no

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3:20 pm - from carols lj
20 questions that make you say WTF

1.Pokemon, Spongebob, Or hello kitty?
hello kitty (but spongebob to watch)

2. Robots, dinos, or ninjas?

3. What is the emo-est thing you've ever done?
cried yeah .. cried

4.If you could be a superhero, what would your name be?
craz-ee motha- fukka

5.Skulls, zombies, or..puppies?

6.What would be the coolest thing to throw down a flight of stairs?
a hard covered book that when you threw... there was a delay... and then all of a sudden..........'BOOM!!!!"

7.Ahh!! all the color in the world is gonnee!! what do you do?
i mean id be pissed but....

8.Working out:so good or no good?
good but not for me

9.When is the best time to eat breakfast?(BESIDES MORNING)

10.Spoons: yeah but forks are better

11.Would you rather be an idiot or a jerk?(you CANT say neither)
jerk... i am a jerk

12.Whats the most overrated part of your life?

13.Are boyfriends like puppies?
yeah except not as annoying

14.If you're dreaming of ten apples on a wall, how many apples are there?
probably only like 7

15.What is most like a bee in May?
a gypsy moth in mid july

16.Hair mousse, peas, or a skiing penquin?
skiing penguin

17.Lion vs Unicorn: Who would win?

18.If you were a straight person who lived in an all gay town, would you turn gay?

19.Parents:soo good or noo good?

20:Thrift stores:soo good or noo good?
not for me but okay for you

Repost this as "20 questions that make you say WTF"

current mood: bored

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Wednesday, January 10th, 2007
1:45 pm - lmafo... sitting in the other room listening to other peopls conversations
danny: "tom, would you rather be a snake or a bird?"

current mood: high

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Monday, January 8th, 2007
12:43 pm - DRY SOCKET!!
I have a dry socket where my bottom right wisdom tooth used to be... and fucking OW... it hurt so bad last night i coudlnt think...

so this morning i went online and found a dentist here (in wareham) and my mom called and made an appointment for me... so i went there and they cleaned it out and packed it with some numbing shit that tastes like cloves... and now it feels a hell of a lot better... its like a man made clot

current mood: relieved

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Sunday, January 7th, 2007
9:47 am
Fun Fun Randomness
Have you ever been to a different country?:yes... mexico and canada
Are you a vegetarian?:been one for almost 2 years
Do you play a musical instrument?:nah...
Are you double jointed?:yeah in my fingers
Can you whistle?:yeah but i suck at it
Do you have any special talents?:im very verbal
Have you ever cried in front of others?:oh yeah
Do you shower daily?:yeah but sometimes i skip a day here and there
Name one bad habit of yours::i have a lot of psychologically bad habbits... like assuming things and creating made up theories in my head
What friend of your boyfriend/girlfriend do you find the most attractive?:well scotts friend jeremy? thats really all i know... but hes pretty hot... but also in jail... carol got with him before !!!!!
Is chubby cute?:yeah definetly.. but not too chubby
Have you ever been hospitalized?:yeahhhhhh
Ever done something real bad?:oh yeah
Ever got caught doing something bad?:yeahp.... by my parents
Rate your dancing skills 1-10::6
Are you single?:no
If not, what's your significant other's name?:scotty too hotty
What's your sign?:taurus
What's your middle name?:Delia
What's your favorite flower?:eh i dont know...
Who do you idolize?:DR Rey... i want his fucking life
If you could speak a foreign language, which would it be?:japanese... but its so damn hard... im learning espanol
Smell your shirt, what does it smell like?:laundry detergent
What kind of deoderant do you use?:secret 'rain' or some shit... tested on animals unfortunatly
What's your best physical feature?:i have awesome hair and blue eyes... blue eyes are hard to find
What's your favorite physical feature in the opposite sex?:eyes and ass
Are you afraid of the dark?:YES
Favorite Super Nintendo game::original mortal combat or super punch out (remember that one???)
Favorite board game::ummm... risk (wish i could remember how to play it), guess who, and life
Favorite arcade game::mortal combat
When was the last time you shagged?:its been over a month
Rate it on a scale of 1-10::it was probably pretty good... but i really cant remember
Does anything hurt on your body right now? If yes, what?::YES... my fucking mouth where my wisdom teeth used to be... OW... i just popped a vike tho so it should go away soon
Sleeping position::stomach
Children?:do i want them? maybe... id rather adopt i think... more logical in this stupid ass world of ours
Least favorite food::MUSHROOMS
Most desirable place to visit::well right now i really want to go to japan... but it changes every day of the week
Have you ever peed the bed?:yes im pretty sure i have
Do you enjoy reality tv?:no i dont except for dr 90210
Do you believe in a higher power?:yes... but no specific one
Are you supersticious?:sometimes
Believe in ghosts?:yes... i do
Ever seen a ghost?:no but jean cullinane has
Watch porn?:sometimes... but not to get off or anything
What's your favorite horror film?:saw 1... the birds
What's the best book you've ever read?:catcher in the rye
Lactose Intolerant?:no
If you could put one thing in your mouth right now, what would it be?:i dont even want to open my mouth it hurts so much
Least favorite word::'KID'... like when you call someone a kid... like 'yo, kid!" its disguesting
Worst teacher::fucking ms karen... sub at lexington high school... she was a fucking CUNT...
Best kisser::scott.... ????? but i dont LIKE kissing if you want to know the truth...
Most embarrassing moment::ohhh id have to go way back...
Do you bite your nails?:yeah i do
Most desired length of hair on opposite sex?:short... i hate long hair
Are you bilingual?:somewhat?... im working on it
Do you work hard for your money?:not at ALL... and i feel really bad about it
Do you own a plant?:yep... its a house plant we got from wally world
Do you own a fish?:not any more :(
What is on your feet right now?:nothing at all
When was the last time you showered?:not yesterday but the day before
Have you ever cheated on a loved one?:nope
Ever ratted someone out?:yep
Who was the last person you yelled at?:scott
Who was the last person you hit?:scott
Who was the last person you kissed?:scott
Are you wearing underwear?:yeah
If so..what kind?:hey im not a 13 year old girl trying to show off... but i am wearing blue bikini underwear... not sexy underwear or anything... just regualr old blue underwear
Do you like bananas?:yeah i do
Can you sing?:NOOO i can NOT sing
What's your future child's name going to be?:telly, laine, abraham, nonnie, dale,
Are you racist?:im truely not
Are you a homophobe?:im truely not
What's your favorite kind of animal?:bunnies
Have you ever been bitten by a spider?:probably
Ever had a tic stuck to you?:yes
Have you ever cried for no reason?:OH YEAH
Do you have piercings?:yep...
Do you have tattoos?:nope
How long is your hair?:lands on my mid back
How long are you..okay how tall are you?:6 feet
What do you do for a living?:go to school... earn a GPA
Where's the prettiest place you've ever been?:hawaii
Is Shakira hot?:yeah
Do you want someone's boyfriend/girlfriend?:nah
Do you have the hots for a co-worker?:nope... i dont HAVE co-workers
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Saturday, January 6th, 2007
8:06 pm - yaaay
well my three wisdom teeth are out... the dentist gave them to me and im carrying them around with me in a little envelope. Im high as shit right now on vikes... yaaayyyyy

if every word i say... could make you laugh id talk forever.....
jesse and the rippersss!!!!

i chilled with derek yesterday after i got my teeth ripped out and we went to barnes and noble and panera... and then to the pet store and i got my bunny some carrot flavored puffs... which he doesnt really like that much. Derek got high too... i love having a supply. My teeth hurt this morning when i woke up so i popped one and went back to bed... woke up high and happy... which i am right now too..
thats why im writing this long entry in the first place... usually i dotn have the patience to write but now i do. Full house is awesome... i fucking love it so much... it makes me so happy

im watching season five on dvd right now... i cant fucking WAIT till season six comes out... thats the best season ever... when they go to disney in the house meets the mouse... and also when deej comes back from spain and michelle and stephanie get on the wrong plane to auckland instead of 'okaland'... HAHAHa i love that epsiode... reminds me of being a little kid watching it at 7 o'clock on a wednesday night. socotts doing something serious right now... like organizing his tools... i think im kind of annyoing him ...

acutally i KNOW im annoying him... and everytime i ask him 'am i annoying you right now?' he gets MORE annoyed... which is kinda annoying me.

everywhere you look everywhere you look... theresa place... of somebody who needs you

every where you look
when youre lost out there and youre all alone...

the light
is waiting

everywhere you look! doo bee doo woapp ba-da

current mood: anxious

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Friday, January 5th, 2007
9:31 am - im standing at the edge of tomorrow... its up to me how far i go...
im going to get my wisdom teeth taken out in a half hour... im NOT looking foward to it... i fucking hate getting weird shit shot into my vein... some mixture of ketamine and fently... and some other shit... EW... fuck

what the fuck

i hate this shit

at least i only have three wisdom teeth... one of them never grew in

actually NONE of them grew in yet... theyre cutting into my gums... its just that one never exisisted... a bottom one

im fucking hungry but youre not allowed to eat anything six hours before your appointment... so ill have to attempt to eat after

i hope nothing goes wrong with my heart.... i have a fucked up heart

current mood: scared

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